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Amalina, otherwise known asLulu. A female with Peterpan complex.
Still failing at life but YOLO.
(爱) books, fanfictions, shoujo manga, drama, band music, acoustic songs, FTISLAND, BTS, ideas of soulmate and parallel universe & cats.
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the past
Arigatou
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So...I skipped all the adulting and went straight in becoming old? I can't really handle big shock anymore. My immune system dramatically went down the drain (exaggerating) and I become more prone to sickness nowadays. Sigh.
Anyway this post is meant to other pharmacy graduates in Malaysia who want to serve in government sector but for personal reason(s) might had to postpone their appointment.
The backstory is the first time I logged into the system (in January, if I'm not mistaken), I did not managed to get the place that I wanted.
So I am going to tell you what is it like when you do postponement in the epharmacist system with the hope you wont get freaked out like me. Because I legit almost had a heart attack (exaggerating again). So far I don't really find anything resourceful on the internet regarding the postponement unless you directly call the human resource. The guide and the FAQ provided were a bit ambiguous for me.
And it doesn't helped when you check your status on SPA8i website and saw the latest date shows that I was "tidak melepasi tapisan semasa yang ditetapkan....."-I was like, "......what?" and proceed to having major mental breakdown. I emailed both KKM and SPA but no immediate reply.
It would be a good decision to regularly check your application from time to time so if you have any inquiry you have the ample time to ask around. (don't be like me, everything is last minute checked)
But fret not if you have the similar status as I am. It's going to be okay.
So in the morning, I called KKM and asked them about my status because friends had receiving emails regarding the appointment but people who did postponement had nothing assured because we received no email. I am disappointed with the response I received because they, once again, were ambiguous. I am rephrasing what they told me, "We were still reviewing your postponement so you can try log in tomorrow. If you cannot log in, that means you are for the next intake lah."
Excuse me, I thought before I did my postponement, I asked you clearly if it will affect my next intake? And you clearly said NO. So, what is this? I might not be called for this intake? Hey give me some black and white lah. Tell me the truth (I screamed in my mind).
I was severely saddened by the bits of information I received. I was preparing myself for the worse. So I might had to wait for few months more. I was planning my back up plan when suddenly at 12.25pm I received an email from KKM.
I was like, THANKS GOD!
Anyway for the SPA8i status, I am not sure why it became like that. They gave a very not clear answer to that (what's with the government sector and their ambiguous answers? tell me). Might be because we already succeed in the application but we are on hold. Who knows.
So I heard the postponement is valid for one time only. So if you postponed before you can't postpone for the second time.
Anyway it was a roller coaster of emotions for these few days. But it was all good in the end.
Well, not yet. I still have tomorrow to be worry about. I need to fight for my choice of place to start my prp. Pray so that I could get what I want.
Wish me luck.
////update on 15/3/2018
So epharmacist once again played with my heart (cue: bsb- quit playing games with my heart).
The system was supposedly to be opened at 12pm. I went to internet cafe near my house because the connection is most likely to be stable compared to my home. I was there at approximately 10.40pm, so I waited while being fidgety and anxious till 12pm.
Once it hits 12pm, I tried to log in but god dammit, to no avail. It was a technical problem, they said.
So I was on the way home but then I received an email saying the system would be re-opened at 3pm. So I went to grab some simple lunch then waited till 2pm to go back to the internet cafe. I was too nervous I tried to calm myself down. I even listened to the white noise for relaxation. Lol. The fight-or-flight reaction was activated. I felt nauseous and my stomach was full of gastric juice. This was the worst sympathetic reaction I ever had, I guess.
Before it hits 3pm (I think around 2.58pm), I successfully logged into the system, hell yeah. I frantically choose my placement and thank god! I succeed. I got the place that I wanted.
It was actually worth the wait. I took the chance to do the postponement even though I am not sure if I could ever get what I want. I am glad I did not settled down the first time.
My journey to be a pharmacist is going to start from here. Wish me luck again for the future.
Cheers to the future.
And for now I think I need sleep. My body worked too hard these past few days.
////additional update:
Thank you Sue for the celebratory cake. I have such a supportive friend (cries a river).
So...I skipped all the adulting and went straight in becoming old? I can't really handle big shock anymore. My immune system dramatically went down the drain (exaggerating) and I become more prone to sickness nowadays. Sigh.
Anyway this post is meant to other pharmacy graduates in Malaysia who want to serve in government sector but for personal reason(s) might had to postpone their appointment.
The backstory is the first time I logged into the system (in January, if I'm not mistaken), I did not managed to get the place that I wanted.
So I am going to tell you what is it like when you do postponement in the epharmacist system with the hope you wont get freaked out like me. Because I legit almost had a heart attack (exaggerating again). So far I don't really find anything resourceful on the internet regarding the postponement unless you directly call the human resource. The guide and the FAQ provided were a bit ambiguous for me.
And it doesn't helped when you check your status on SPA8i website and saw the latest date shows that I was "tidak melepasi tapisan semasa yang ditetapkan....."-I was like, "......what?" and proceed to having major mental breakdown. I emailed both KKM and SPA but no immediate reply.
It would be a good decision to regularly check your application from time to time so if you have any inquiry you have the ample time to ask around. (don't be like me, everything is last minute checked)
But fret not if you have the similar status as I am. It's going to be okay.
So in the morning, I called KKM and asked them about my status because friends had receiving emails regarding the appointment but people who did postponement had nothing assured because we received no email. I am disappointed with the response I received because they, once again, were ambiguous. I am rephrasing what they told me, "We were still reviewing your postponement so you can try log in tomorrow. If you cannot log in, that means you are for the next intake lah."
Excuse me, I thought before I did my postponement, I asked you clearly if it will affect my next intake? And you clearly said NO. So, what is this? I might not be called for this intake? Hey give me some black and white lah. Tell me the truth (I screamed in my mind).
I was severely saddened by the bits of information I received. I was preparing myself for the worse. So I might had to wait for few months more. I was planning my back up plan when suddenly at 12.25pm I received an email from KKM.
I was like, THANKS GOD!
Anyway for the SPA8i status, I am not sure why it became like that. They gave a very not clear answer to that (what's with the government sector and their ambiguous answers? tell me). Might be because we already succeed in the application but we are on hold. Who knows.
So I heard the postponement is valid for one time only. So if you postponed before you can't postpone for the second time.
Anyway it was a roller coaster of emotions for these few days. But it was all good in the end.
Well, not yet. I still have tomorrow to be worry about. I need to fight for my choice of place to start my prp. Pray so that I could get what I want.
Wish me luck.
////update on 15/3/2018
So epharmacist once again played with my heart (cue: bsb- quit playing games with my heart).
The system was supposedly to be opened at 12pm. I went to internet cafe near my house because the connection is most likely to be stable compared to my home. I was there at approximately 10.40pm, so I waited while being fidgety and anxious till 12pm.
Once it hits 12pm, I tried to log in but god dammit, to no avail. It was a technical problem, they said.
So I was on the way home but then I received an email saying the system would be re-opened at 3pm. So I went to grab some simple lunch then waited till 2pm to go back to the internet cafe. I was too nervous I tried to calm myself down. I even listened to the white noise for relaxation. Lol. The fight-or-flight reaction was activated. I felt nauseous and my stomach was full of gastric juice. This was the worst sympathetic reaction I ever had, I guess.
Before it hits 3pm (I think around 2.58pm), I successfully logged into the system, hell yeah. I frantically choose my placement and thank god! I succeed. I got the place that I wanted.
It was actually worth the wait. I took the chance to do the postponement even though I am not sure if I could ever get what I want. I am glad I did not settled down the first time.
My journey to be a pharmacist is going to start from here. Wish me luck again for the future.
Cheers to the future.
And for now I think I need sleep. My body worked too hard these past few days.
////additional update:
Thank you Sue for the celebratory cake. I have such a supportive friend (cries a river).
• Born in 1992. Live in KL, Malaysia for all my life yet.
• The name Amalina came from Arabic word which means hope. The actual epitome of "I am your hope, I am your angel." (lol hobi)
• My nickname Lulu came from a cartoon that I used to like called The Little Lulu Show. And it was partly because there're so many people with the same name in my class back then, so we all came with some sort of nicknames. and I stuck with the name Lulu till very now.
• My internet pseudonym is lulumichin.
• I was a twin but my twin brother died before we were born. I am the eldest but not the first child. I had an older brother but he died early.
• I am neither a good or bad person. I might be a good to some and bad to another. But whatever.
•When I don't smile, I have resting bitch face. I tried my best to be smiley every time.
• I have one sided cheek dimple and also chin dimple (or butt chin).
• Tbh, I am usually kind and I try to think good about people. It is just I am shy towards stranger. But don't make me hate you, I'll hate you forever.
• Myers-Briggs type: INFP
• I don't talk much. A person close to me once said this; "We are okay because we knew you, but what do you do with people who don't?" I used to think a lot but these days I don't care anymore. Those who matter didn't mind, those who mind didn't matter (Dr Seuss).
• A clumsy realist. A walking irony. An introvert.
• I love FT ISLAND and my favourite is the bassist, Jaejin. These days I am a laid back fan (and old). I like their songs, they are awesome. They accompany me in most of my life. They are like an old friend, so comfortable, feel like home.
• BTS stan. What's funny was I used to not like them because of their debut song, No More Dream. Lol because I felt like they were mocking me. In 2013, I was a first year pharmacy student and I was quite lost and sad and mildly depressed because I contemplated a lot about my dream, passion and ambition then. But now, their songs give me strength. Thank you BTS if you ever read this lol.
• Love rock band music and slow acoustic songs. But I do listen to any sort of genres. Well it depends on my mood.
• I love scary movies. Not that I am brave but I guess I like the adrenaline rush and it is a good excuse to scream loudly. The only reason why I go to cinema actually.
• Love to write letter and receiving it. Because I think it's very private and personal. A snail mail is a YESSSS! (this would be one of ways to court me and don't confess through facebook pls if you don't want me to read it five years after hah legit true story. Sorry dude. )Oh, and time-capsule letters too so I could always laugh at my younger self.
• I love late night drive around city, watching lights. It was one form of healing for me. (and a perfect date as long as it is shariah compliance).
• A reader. Books, fanfictions, manga, poems, classics. I love it all. Most recently read: The Book of Lossby Julith Jedamus.
"How luxuriantly one's fears grow in the dark! Exposed to the sun they wither and recede, but at night they are rampant."
• Soulmates and parallel world theory intrigued me. It is a bittersweet concept. Isn't it?
• A drama watcher. (mydramalist)
• A fan of Kimi ni Todoke. It was such a cute story awww my heart.
• My guilty pleasure includes skincare and cosmetics. I kinda like buying these things because Idk, I just like them. (lowkey want to be a formulator hihihi)
• A coffee drinker. Used to drink for survival but I guess it became habit now. My favourite is Caramel Macchiato. I don't drink my coffee black.
• A cat person. I love my cats but why we are always in the love-hate relationship idk pls help.
• No matter how hard I try, crossing road is very scary for me. I thought when I got my driving license it's going to be better, but naaaaaaah I forever need someone to cross the road with me. Help me by taking my hand and escort me pls.
• I may look calm all the time but I killed you many times in my mind. lol
• I like green colour the most. If you paid attention, my clothes are usually in green.
•I like to learn language. I speak Malay, English and imperfect and basic Mandarin and Korean.
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