why i need to treat you like family when you don't treat me like family?
why i need to listen to you when you never listen to me?
why i need to treat you like my own brother and sister when you never treat me like one?
why i need to respect you when you never respect me?
i'm older than you.why can't you give some respect to me?
WHY?WHY?WHY?

why i can't do whatever i want when you can do whatever you want?
why i can't live my life when you can?
why everyone cares about you and no one ever look at me?
why i need to like you when i don't like you?
WHY?WHY?WHY?

you know what?i don't really need you all in my life.
i've never like you guys.
all i need is my parents,my brother and my friends.
i don't need family like you.
just vanish from my life and i'll be happy.
or maybe i'll vanish from your life.maybe that makes you happy.
and i'll be happy too.
i will never ever see you with you big fake smiles and stupid lies.

you know what?maybe i can pretend to treat you like family.
but in fact i've never want you as my family.
yeah,i'm know.i'm a BIG hypocrite.
if you want me to pretend to like you,i will do it.
i'll give you fake smile everyday,i'll give you fake sweet words everyday.
yeah,i'll do it.

just say anything bad about me.i don't care.
talk until you can't talk anymore.
just talk shit about me.I WILL NEVER CARE!
i have my parents,my brother,my friends.
they all are much more better than you all.
at least,they understand me.and you?you never understand me.
just go to hell lah.I don't need you all

~~feel much more better now
but still unsatisfied.i feel like want to slay someone now.
-slaughtergoatforharirayakorban-

jaejin,send me a kiss now

credits;on gifs + Hana@S*Flowers [ www.ftivn.com ]

good goat!-hugs him-

why i need to treat you like family when you don't treat me like family?
why i need to listen to you when you never listen to me?
why i need to treat you like my own brother and sister when you never treat me like one?
why i need to respect you when you never respect me?
i'm older than you.why can't you give some respect to me?
WHY?WHY?WHY?

why i can't do whatever i want when you can do whatever you want?
why i can't live my life when you can?
why everyone cares about you and no one ever look at me?
why i need to like you when i don't like you?
WHY?WHY?WHY?

you know what?i don't really need you all in my life.
i've never like you guys.
all i need is my parents,my brother and my friends.
i don't need family like you.
just vanish from my life and i'll be happy.
or maybe i'll vanish from your life.maybe that makes you happy.
and i'll be happy too.
i will never ever see you with you big fake smiles and stupid lies.

you know what?maybe i can pretend to treat you like family.
but in fact i've never want you as my family.
yeah,i'm know.i'm a BIG hypocrite.
if you want me to pretend to like you,i will do it.
i'll give you fake smile everyday,i'll give you fake sweet words everyday.
yeah,i'll do it.

just say anything bad about me.i don't care.
talk until you can't talk anymore.
just talk shit about me.I WILL NEVER CARE!
i have my parents,my brother,my friends.
they all are much more better than you all.
at least,they understand me.and you?you never understand me.
just go to hell lah.I don't need you all

~~feel much more better now
but still unsatisfied.i feel like want to slay someone now.
-slaughtergoatforharirayakorban-

jaejin,send me a kiss now

credits;on gifs + Hana@S*Flowers [ www.ftivn.com ]

good goat!-hugs him-

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• Born in 1992. Live in KL, Malaysia for all my life yet.
• The name Amalina came from Arabic word which means hope. The actual epitome of "I am your hope, I am your angel." (lol hobi)
• My nickname Lulu came from a cartoon that I used to like called The Little Lulu Show. And it was partly because there're so many people with the same name in my class back then, so we all came with some sort of nicknames. and I stuck with the name Lulu till very now.
• My internet pseudonym is lulumichin.
• I was a twin but my twin brother died before we were born. I am the eldest but not the first child. I had an older brother but he died early.
• I am neither a good or bad person. I might be a good to some and bad to another. But whatever.
•When I don't smile, I have resting bitch face. I tried my best to be smiley every time.
• I have one sided cheek dimple and also chin dimple (or butt chin).
• Tbh, I am usually kind and I try to think good about people. It is just I am shy towards stranger. But don't make me hate you, I'll hate you forever.
• Myers-Briggs type: INFP
• I don't talk much. A person close to me once said this; "We are okay because we knew you, but what do you do with people who don't?" I used to think a lot but these days I don't care anymore. Those who matter didn't mind, those who mind didn't matter (Dr Seuss).
• A clumsy realist. A walking irony. An introvert.
• I love FT ISLAND and my favourite is the bassist, Jaejin. These days I am a laid back fan (and old). I like their songs, they are awesome. They accompany me in most of my life. They are like an old friend, so comfortable, feel like home.
• BTS stan. What's funny was I used to not like them because of their debut song, No More Dream. Lol because I felt like they were mocking me. In 2013, I was a first year pharmacy student and I was quite lost and sad and mildly depressed because I contemplated a lot about my dream, passion and ambition then. But now, their songs give me strength. Thank you BTS if you ever read this lol.
• Love rock band music and slow acoustic songs. But I do listen to any sort of genres. Well it depends on my mood.
• I love scary movies. Not that I am brave but I guess I like the adrenaline rush and it is a good excuse to scream loudly. The only reason why I go to cinema actually.
• Love to write letter and receiving it. Because I think it's very private and personal. A snail mail is a YESSSS! (this would be one of ways to court me and don't confess through facebook pls if you don't want me to read it five years after hah legit true story. Sorry dude. )Oh, and time-capsule letters too so I could always laugh at my younger self.
• I love late night drive around city, watching lights. It was one form of healing for me. (and a perfect date as long as it is shariah compliance).
• A reader. Books, fanfictions, manga, poems, classics. I love it all. Most recently read: The Book of Loss by Julith Jedamus.

"How luxuriantly one's fears grow in the dark! Exposed to the sun they wither and recede, but at night they are rampant."
• Soulmates and parallel world theory intrigued me. It is a bittersweet concept. Isn't it?
• A drama watcher. (mydramalist)
• A fan of Kimi ni Todoke. It was such a cute story awww my heart.
• My guilty pleasure includes skincare and cosmetics. I kinda like buying these things because Idk, I just like them. (lowkey want to be a formulator hihihi)
• A coffee drinker. Used to drink for survival but I guess it became habit now. My favourite is Caramel Macchiato. I don't drink my coffee black.
• A cat person. I love my cats but why we are always in the love-hate relationship idk pls help.
• No matter how hard I try, crossing road is very scary for me. I thought when I got my driving license it's going to be better, but naaaaaaah I forever need someone to cross the road with me. Help me by taking my hand and escort me pls.
• I may look calm all the time but I killed you many times in my mind. lol
• I like green colour the most. If you paid attention, my clothes are usually in green.
•I like to learn language. I speak Malay, English and imperfect and basic Mandarin and Korean.

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